This Christmas was allllright. I asked for Uggs and a bunch of other stuff, but my mom got me two pairs of okay looking cheaper boots insted but I didn't realy like them and I guess I couldnt hide it. So she's sending them back to get my uggs :/ I feel kind of bad.....but she said she really wanted to get them for me so she will. I got ner two pairs of different cresent moon earings (she loves moons) and a silver necklace with a bar of about 8 or seven crystals. It was expensive hhaa. but ANYYTHING to make my mom happen. She loved them though and put them right on!
I didnt loose any weight over the past three days. Bad. but I didnt gain any either.
Intake : 1120
Outtake : 670 cals (50 mins intense cardio and about 10 strength training)
hhahhahahaha wow no wonder I gained a pound. on sunday I was 120, same on monday, I didnt work out, and today I just ate alot anf barely worked out. fucker.
Tomorrow morning, I'm eating a clemintine for breakfast, a 180 cal nutrition bar for lunch, then I'm coming home and doing 45 mins cardio. then a salad for dinner. and if I eat anything else........I'm an even bigger fatass than I am now. This isnt a good week, but I guess it could be worse. Christmas is in 3 days, and tomorrow at school me and my girilies are exchanging gifts<3
Then wednesday I'm going on a water fast, just one day though cause it's going to be my first, but if I can I'll go longer. Any tips at all? Anything would be great<3
Today so far I've had 250 calories (banana, toast with 1tsp of pb and 1tsp of jelly topped with flax seeds) In a couple of minutes I'm going to head out to the gym where I'll do my usual, (45 minutes carido, 15 minutes srength training) and it'll average on about 600 - 700 calorie outtake for me. For lunch I'm guessing I'll just heat up some light soymilk and pour in some coco powder (no sugar) and it ends up being about 140 calories Then for dinner a salad, no dressing, about 70 calories.
So my intake - 460 Outtake - 600 - 700
Meeehh.
I won't even be thinking about food all night! I'm going into cape may with my bestfriend and we're going to see all the victorian houses in christmas lights<3 so excitedd<3
got a negitave comment the other day...haha. it was pretty bad....but whatever it was one of the many. today I ate what I usually did, it added up to 1145. wow. wow........I didn't think it was that much.....what was I thinking? I had a bowl of cereal a couple of hours ago....but I purged it. all of it. 1145......I havent had that much in a long time.........you know no wonder I'm soooooooo fucking fat. 122 pounds. wooooowwww wow. WOW. how did I let myself get that big? I have the biggest thighs. and calfs and arms. like....my arms are probably equal to someones calf theyre fucking huge. and my thighs dont even get me fucking started. theyre the fatest one's I've ever seen. I just wish I had a perfect body. but I'm going to do anything I can to get it. anything.
but......on other topics besides my self loathing..ahah....I'm thinking about going on a three day water fast. I've never done a full water fast....but I deffinetly want to try. I just need to figure out a way to keep my mom from knowing. I'm thinking about starting sunday since I'll be with my friend saturday. She'll notice. Yea....sunday is good because I won't be with anyone, then school monday which is easy and I'm going to be home alone tuesday. I'm excited.
Well my inntake today was 1145 and my outtake was only 400........fuck fuck fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
